Loong gaap!!

Its been over a month that I've posted in the blog. All these days was really sick. They call it mornin sickness but trust me its a all-day-long sickness. Ohh these couple of weeks were the most I've ever suffered so much. Was totally bedridden. Could not even walk upto the bathroom. I guess I was totally on bed for almost 3 weeks. Then got admitted again and this time the medicines worked.Finally!! and now I can walk without having to have that spinning feeeling all day long and no more throwing ups. Thank God for that.
Sometimes some things seem a little superstitious but actually they work. Mummy gave me "salividi"(an andhra special sweet) and a blouse peice, etc as a formality which has to be done in the third month of pregnancy and beleive me I've been feeling much better from that day onwards. She told me that its supposed bring peace(telugu lo chalava chestadi ani) during pregnancy. She also made pala-talukalu(again an andhra special sweet), which is also supposed to be eaten must and should during the third month of pregnancy.
I really have to say I was very lucky to have mummy and Varun by me during this journey. It was like a support pillar. Also I learnt so much from mummy about pregnancy.
My kid totally has to be greatful to mummy. She has done so much for me and the kid that maybe I myself am not doing for the baby. Everyday mornin by 8 she would make breakfast and make me eat. By 10 she would make me eat a fruit, by 12 she made lunch for me, again by 3 she gave me Ragi java or pomogranate or any other fruit, by 6 she would make snacks for me and by 8 she would make me have my dinner. All this time I did not even move from the bed. She has done so much for me and this baby, I dont know how am going to repay her.
I really wish my kid remembers all this and loves her and takes care of her.
Also I have to talk about Varun. He was so supportive. I remember the day when I was feeling dizzy he held me in his arms and took me to hospital. At the hospital I threw up totally on my face and Varun and Rajesh held the bowl while I was still throwing up and they cleaned my entire face. Rajesh even went to the extent of cleanin the floor where I had thrown up.
I really do not know what good deeds I've done in which life that I am being blessed with such loving people around me.

Growing with the baby

Today went to the doc for a prenatal and got tested for a few things. Last week I was a little worried that am not having any morning sickness, nor do I have food cravings, or mood swings. But look at me now, am all repenting for missing these last week. Whoever called it morning sickness must be really crazy, coz the sickness happens all day morning to night. Can not eat anything. Forget about eating, a small sip of water and everything just comes out.
Now I totally realized that its not just the baby growing, its me and my first trimester sickness. But all of it seems worth. Every time I vomit, its kind of a different feeling. It feels like as if the baby inside is being naughty and playing with me. The pain, the uneasiness, vomiting everything seems so tiny compared to my baby.
Am literally waiting to see the baby. Also a small wish is wandering around, what if I had twins. I wish we have twins. Mostly will get to know that by Tuesday. Today when I went to the doc she told me that the size of the baby is smaller than it should be. I am a little worried about that. But there is something very funny too, My tummy has started growing and my pants are fitting tighter and I started thinking it is my baby bump and now I realized that it is due to all the eating am doing these days, thanks to Mummy. Hehehe felt so funny when Vannu told me this.
Waiting for tuesday to come and waiting to see the little superstar inside.!

the first news

After coming back from the beach I realised that I was way past my monthly date and decided to secretly take a home preg test. Didn't want to dissappoint people with a negative result. Last Thursday went to a pharmacy and got a home preg test and tested "Positive".

What was the feeling, I can't explain...I didn't know how to react, maybe this happens to every one but it felt so special when it happenned to me. Did not want to tell anyone but the blush on my face could not hide it. The very look on my face Rajesh understood. I tried to tell mom and Varun using a silly example with quarters, 5 cents and 10 cents. Varun just looked at me and gave me a nod like to ask "Is it true?",that I can never forget, and I nodded as if to say yes and his face just lit up. Mom took a lot of time realizing I was pregnant. Almost a day. Then we passed on the news to attaya and Aneel. Aneel was literally jumping with joy. It was so nice to see them so happy. Finally also told dad and Rajesh's dad. Everyone was happy about the news.

I was more than happy. Especially after hearing all the storied of my friends who have faced so many problems trying to conceive. Finally everything was over. It was a new member joining our family. So many questions. Is it a girl or a boy, a single baby or multiples, how is the baby going to look like, what are we going to name the baby, uhh so many unanswered questions kept wandering around my head. This is what every woman dreams about!

to start offf

It has been almost 10 months and people were already asking me about "gud news". Me n Rajesh had not given it a serious thought yet. We knew someday we had to make a decision regarding when to plan a baby. Both of us were not quite ready to take up such a huge responsibility. We even went to the extent of downloading a monthly calender to keep track of "the days" and to stay away from them. Every time I raised a topic about having kids Rajesh would simply pass it on! 

last month Varun was supposed to be flying to US and as a cherry on top mom also joined him. They came to US on the 17th after a lot of flight delays, changes and misses. We were very happy to have them here. I was already so excited about touring the country with mom n brother. As decided we went on a nice trip to the beach and atlantic city and had loads of fun. Some how at the beach I had a weird kind of a feeling. Usually I do not prefer getting wet at a beach am always at the dry land watching people. Thats coz someone told me that the ocean is always attracted to newly married women and unmarried girls. But this time I had some weird confidence and went in and played in the water along with all my cousins and Rajesh. Weird I thought.!